Today

So, last year, about this time, I started having a hard time controling my blood sugar. All of a sudden, it cleared up. Well, I started supplimenting cinnamon to lower my blood glucose and prevent type 2 diabetes. All of a sudden, just like last year, it's happening again. So I finally got the allergies and sinus issues under control. Now all I need to do is get this taken care of and I will be back to normal. Whstevet that is.

More news

OK, so I have a head MRI with contrast tomorrow. I had mentioned before, I don't know which is scarier, them finding something or them NOT finding something. While I am sure I don't have any wierd tumors or anything (because I don't have any symptoms and WEBMD says I don't) I am still absolutley terrified. I guess Amber is right though, if I do have some wierd shit, it's better to find out now than once it's too late. Still..... that's not exceptionally comforting. The main conditions the WebMD keeps comming up with are Laribynthitis, Acute Sunusitis, Generalized Axiety Disorder and Tension headaches. The great news is that none of these are life threatening and all of them are treatable. The bad new is, I have to wait until AT LEAST tomorrow afternoon before I know about the MRI results.

The latest news

So I went to the ENT on Friday hoping to hear "Yep, it's an ear infection and here's some anitbiotics." Instead, he said I don't show any signs of infection, but I am having an MRI to see if it's an inner ear dysfunction or migraines. I know I have anxiety issues but hearing the specialist say "I don't know, we need an MRI of your head" does not help anything at all. So, now i get to wait for them to call my insurance, pre-certify, and schedule me. THEN I get to wait for the Radiologist to read the MRI and fax his/her findings to the ENT. I don't know which one would scare me more; if they found something or if they DIDNT find something :0/ As a matter of fact, I woke up in a full blown axiety attack this morning. I must have been dreaming about something that triggered it. It took me about an hour to relax and calm myself down. This crap is getting old. I know Amber is tired of hearing about it and I am tired of having it. Hopefully, the MRI will show something minor, with a simple fix, and life can go on normally.

Anxiety and depression

Since my blood sugar is obviously not an issue (thank God), I will talk about a variety of subjects. Today will be my people who suffer from anxiety and/or depression.
Like I said before, I used to think that Anxiety could be cured by a simple breathing excersize or some relaxation techniques. After having it (as one of the symptoms of my inner ear infection) I can say, it's more complicated than that. When we were at Alexis' school (taking cover for the tornado) my inner ear started acting up on me and the Anxiety came rushing back. I started thinking about and worrying about things that I KNEW weren't issues. I have never been worryied about tornados, but I was yestarday. I know my issue is an inner ear infection but I started thinking, "What if that's not the problem?!?" I became Hyper-aware to every since thing that was happening in my body and started wondering why it was happening. It was scary. I tried to think about other things but it didn't help. The pressure from the ear went away and the anxiety followed. So, while I don't have any novel advice, I just wanted to say that I DO understand.
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Had a revalation

So, monday, at the begining of a panic attack, me and Amber scoured the internet one last time. All of a sudden, she said, "I found it!" AN INNER EAR INFECTION! It makes perfect sense. It explains EVERY single one of my symptoms. EVERY ONE! So, I made an appointment with the ENT in North Little Rock for next Friday. I'm sure he will look in my ears and give me about 10 days of antibiotics. I told Amber that I can't be the only person that this has happened to. After talking to my Mom, it turns out I have had numerous inner ear infections in the past, so this is nothing new. So, YEAH! No blood sugar problems.

For all of my friends that have anxiety; That stuff is No Joke. When we were taking cover from the tornado (in Alexis' school) my ear started started acting up on me. I started stressing about stuff that I KNEW wasn't a problem. Then I started stressing about stressing. It was scary, to say the least. I used to think, "Anxiety?!? Just take some deep breaths and think happy thoughts." Oh, I wish that's all it took. I understand now and sympathize with y'all.

Monday, May 23

So, it's my first day back at work. I weighed in, this morning, at 256lbs. Until I get paid (because we had already bought groceries), I am trying to eat some higher carbs with most of them being complex carbs and dietary fiber. I am glad that I only have to go to work 2 days this week because when I get one of the lightheaded feelings, driving kind of sucks.

Fast foward to today

Mid- March 2011- Just like the first time, I was heading home, after work, and was singing. I got this wierd light headed feeling. The only difference is, the symptoms didn't go away. They seemed to be proportional to how many grams of carbs I ate so I figured, it must be Insulin Resistance (which I had been diagnosed with in 2010).
So, I started taking the recommended daily dosages of Cinnamon and Chromium Picolinate. I was taking them in split doses; once upon waking and once just before bed. In addition, I increased my carbs. Everything was fine for 1 month. Then, BAM. The symptoms came back.
 The symptoms were these:
- Light Headedness / Brain Fog
- Fatigue
- Anxiety
- Hunger
- Mild Shaking
- Blury Vision
- Taking unusually deep breaths

So, I wet to the doctor and she did a Fasting Metabolic Panel. Honestly, I was hoping for an obvious problem with a clear cut solution. She called me the next day and her exact words were "Wow!" All of my numbers were perfect. I wound up calling her back that day because I ate a sandwich and got very light headed and nausous. This kick started an anxiety attack. She perscribed an anti-anxiety medication but after reading the side effects, I decided to NOT take it. I bought a blood glucose meter and I noticed that my glucose actually dropped after I ate a lower carb meal.
After doing some research, I believe I have some form of reactive Hypoglycemia. So, as soon as I get paid (on Friday), we (Me, my  Wife and my Daughter) and going to start back on a Diabetic Diet. We bought a Diabetic Cook book, last year, and while we followed the diet, I did not have any symptoms of any kind. The only issue is, buying all of the whole foods is expensive and the preperation is time consuming.